Saturday, September 12, 2020

Have we always had choice?

It is written that God created Man and Woman with free will, the ability to choose the actions we take. This is one reason I truly believe any type of forcing our will onto others is wrong, except in self defense or emergency situations - child really wants to get killed by running in front of a moving car? I doubt it. So, I would indeed force that child away from the road. Other real life situations allow for the judgment of right or wrong, especially with parenting differences. 🤷‍♀️ I parent my children very differently than some people, and I try to avoid judging other parents, including those who appear to perpetuate the cycles of fear and anger, or “punishment and reward”, as I’ve learned by Dr. Marshall Rosenberg and Non-violent Communication. More about that another time, since that likely is my biggest passion. 

I shared this thought on Facebook: 

“Ever wonder why some children are conceived in the natural way and others aren’t? A theory I heard recently is that we have choice from conception - from that very spark of light science has documented. 

Powerful children!”

And then this comment:

I learned from The Celestine Prophecy years ago about the idea of “soul groups” and literally have had visions of my children and me in heaven... I chose my dysfunctional family of origin, thinking I could help them grow (I’ve recently blocked from Facebook my mom and 5 sisters, and brothers in law... but I stay connected in person to some of them, especially my mom!) - What I share about my journey offends them, and that’s never my intention. - I envision my oldest daughter, who chose to live with my mother instead of with me when she was a teen, intended to be born instead of me at that time. 😳 (It’s a vision I can’t prove, and don’t focus on too much... just an interesting theory in my mind.) 

Then, I envision my second daughter - born 10 yrs after my oldest - intended to be born first, but her sister “stole” her place. 😜 🤷‍♀️ Something about their personalities that lends to my belief in this idea. First daughter - sweet, mild mannered, first tantrum at 7 yrs old. Second daughter, c section for refusal to be born (2 weeks early - my fault 🤣... she was 8 pounds, I figured she was cooked enough at 38 weeks and I was soooo sick of having symptoms of morning sickness symptoms for 9 months... I forgive myself. I got lucky that she’s perfectly healthy and has been since birth), Sweet baby until her first tantrum at 7 MONTHS old, I literally would tell her - “you can’t! You’re only 7 months old!” 🤣, taught herself to read with just a little help from me at age 2, then she seemed to mellow around age 5. 😜 Always I sensed OLD SOUL. Her father was a singer songwriter and actor who terminated his legal parenting rights when our daughter was a month old, but we stayed friends until he died when she was 7. 😳😢 I’ve often wondered about “predestination”... if this was the reason my second daughter knew how to sing the blues as a very young child, with a certain understanding of the meaning behind the lyrics... A lot of sadness we have survived. My “dead ex” makes his presence known to us pretty often 😳 ... interesting lessons we’ve learned about the after life from William - our guardian angel, born 2/22 - these past 8 yrs... 

Then my prince, “man of my dreams”... happened to come through a decade ago when I was visiting the Big Island of Hawaii. I went alone, hoping to meet a certain man, we did meet and shared a few days of romance including sex which resulted in my son coming through! 😜 I’ve always dreamed of meeting a wonderful man to be my partner in life. Never did I think I would give birth to him. It’s not a romantic relationship (yuck) but certainly a partnership, just as I shared with my daughters. - All three of my pregnancies 10 yrs and 6 yrs apart seem to be immaculate! 😳🤣🤷‍♀️ I’ve told them and others “I’ve had sex more than 3 times in my life...” 🤣

❤️

I don’t know how long Facebook will be around or how long I will choose to “play” there. I appreciate remembering this blogspot I created so many years ago... feels like another life! 🤣 My daughter Audrey has encouraged me to write more and said she really appreciated reading my thoughts when she was a child. 

Audrey was the one who taught me how to love. More on this later. ❤️

This week I registered CynthiaBorelle.com and cynthia@CynthiaBorelle.com 

Re-member Who You Are! ❤️ 


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